that saturday that i really didnt wanna head to work.

perfect weather, the temperature just nice with a lil chill.

sigh.

nonetheless, my 1st double rainbow where all the 7colours were visible!

FULL SHAPE(from left to right) + FULL VIEW!

it was a beautiful sight, i wished time could stop there.

*-.- yes im silly just like that i know!*

1 + 1 HNO3 !

dammit!

CNY @ Maternal side!

My beautiful ahma whom i hold dearly (:

"Down sydrome" fork they call it :D

mmmmmmm ~

Polaroid loves!

Reunion with the girls !

ActionCamera loves!

i got a halo above me head! :D

that night where i popped a bottle of brother's precious cider.

Reunion with the close few.

i love my best friends.

they make my world a better place. a laughable place.

they make me feel worthy, precious & loved (:

Sunday's routine back to normal with sarah's back (:

food, K, MJ & everything everywhere under the sun in the east.

hahahaha.

the most nicest picture.

Raymond was so pekchek with me pestering him that he refuse to smile!

"i will give you one pekchek face." xD

words;

love this. 100%!

D called earlier,

asking if im comfortable to go to his wedding din.

& if im free to attend.

why wouldnt i my friend ? (:

this guy sure can crack me up.

"umm, errrm. if you have a new guy then, ask him along.

bring your partner along if you have any. its ok one."

apart from the awkwardness,

id love to attend & give you my blessings my friend (:

though im not sure if i can go through it alone.

not sure if i can do this alone.

hey......

ive heard. feb 13th ?

congratulations to you (:

id give you all my blessings.

pls be happy ever after, 

stay in love forever

& ...

well, everything good.

i wish you have the best of the bestest,

be the best of the bestest.

cause youre one that deserves nothing but the best.

<3

X.

船到桥头自然直.

I don't understand what's so big about your qualification that you think you got the rights to look down on others.



Welcome to tge working world of cynicism.
No more parents spoonfeeding you.
No more childish comparing of materialism.




I slogged 1 3/4yrs to have what I have today, to be who I am today.
You barely worked a year!
Compare Qualifications, bonus, OT, salary? Comeon la!
Even if you wanna compare, pick someone your status.






I chose to work instead of study.
You chose to Pursue your studies.
The difference between us is my 2yrs hands-on & your 2yrs theories.




He said it right, why should I be so soft & nice towards y'all?
I endup being taken advantage + looked down!

The line is drawn.






________





These days...
Haven't been really good.
It's either real down or barely there.
Happy times merely last for a few moments.




True enough, be so soft/gentle/forgiving&nice to ppl for what?





You'll only end up realizing who aren't worth it in a harsh way.





I am very clear who are the one who are worth it. BUT I tend to take the risk/chance to try. & sometimes in an attempt to make ppl realize that they can be better & nice too.





What do I get in return?
Harshness, criticism, taken advantage of, being looked down on & etc.





& when all these happen, I would so need someone to fall on, a "safety net", comforts. Now that im alone, I would go all out to find comfort in myself that friends don't understand my doings sometimes.





& I know I don't have any comforts now.
So I have only myself to blame.
Because i gek giang, take chances & risk.





I'm naive silly & dumb.
Yes I know I get it.






Never ever let a girl(your special someone) seek comfort from someone else, something else.







_______




With so much ongoing now,
I feel the withdrawal syndromes.
Keeping quiet & not talk.



I'm fine my friends.
I'll be fine in the end.
God is fair,
He won't gimme something that I can't handle.
& for every bad things that happened, something good will happen.
Be patient melly.







"Hey, 我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在倒底在哪里"

Wouldn't it be nice...


To return home after a fcuking bloody bad day to a love one waiting for you. & everything would magically feels alright again.

To cuddle & snuggle under warm sheets & talk nonsense or catch a movie or just let the music drift the both of you into a afternoon nap.

To whine & whine & whine & all he will do is to sayang you & treat you like a baby.


To whine & whine about something & he'll do anything just to get it for you, just to make you happy.

To throw a tantrum over something or when you can't quite get things right yet he takes in all, not be mad & try all ways even if it means dancing stupidly just to make you smile. even when the issues isn't about him.

To go all places do all things With your love

To just hugging him tight, comfortable in his arms, taking in all that smell of him that gives you comfort & everything suddenly feels alright again.

to have someone who actually LISTEN

To have someone who knows you inside out, like your soulmate


To have someone you can go crazy in the public teasing each other, hacking care the views of strangers.


To have someone who treats you like a queen. His queen.





I miss.
I miss it all.








Treat your ladies right.
Because she will give you all she have.
Because she will give you a part of her that she knows there's a possibility of you breaking it, her heart.
Her heart, the most fragile thing in the world. But she will give it to you, in hopes you will never break it. it's called trust.

She will do everything she can to be there for you at your lowest point in hopes that you'll still rem her when you're at your highest point. She will always be there until you shut her away. Women are like this, we just keep giving. Even when others tells us to stop.



Cherish her. Love her. Hold her.
Don't bring her down, always have her back.
Don't be harsh to her, woman are soft-approach creatures.
Don't stood her up, she will feel so dejected.



Standup for her when someone says something about her, you know deep down it isn't true.
Protect her, she vulnerable in this cynical world.


Because once you broke her heart,
She will never be the same again.
Trust me.

nostalgic version.

in another life / we keep all our promises / be us against the world / i would be your girl / i would make you stay / never one without another / we made a pact / should have told you / what you meant to me / now i pay the price / the one who got away

‪The Script - For The First Time (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover) on iTunes‬

emotional.

hot guy on a guitar,

my bigeest weaknesss.

*melts big time*

goodies for OCM from silin&me (:

food = ocm happy.

i love happy ppl !

FaveGirl is back :D

JolenePan's Nephew.

I CANT STOP SMILING :D

love toddlers & children.

50cents cheap thrill !

goodies from everyone ard me.

cant believe jessie got me one personal tub !

love!

home delivery from GH :D

my fave brand!

_______

i see friends anxiously waiting for new BTO flats.

i see friends excited about their falts coming their way.

i see friends anticipating the big day, going through the procedures.

i see friends preparing the engagement process.

i see friends doing the parents talk.

i see friends having headache on the big day's plans.

i feel the joy & happiness in the air.

but i see myself in none of the above in the near future or at least now.

i do hear the nitty gritty details(the SOP is seriously wtf. government, sigh!) all the time.

i hear them all, saved it in the general knowledge.

cause i'll need it next time.

but i havent really thought about the things myself.

back then during secondary school times,

the girls always voted me as the 1st to marry & settle down & etc.

ROFL, see! im the last now!

i must bring this up during reunion.

& we shall all have a good time laughing with all the "remember when..."

actually come to think about it,

my worries now? career. 

& my fats -.-

i feel so old saying that because im only 22!

older peers says im sensible.

but how sensible am i, i really have no idea personally.

i dont have a boyfee now,

neither am i desperate for a r/ship.

so im not rushing anywhere else actually.

for now that im a single (feel)old lady,

i just wanna climb the ladder of my career.

& to travel ard the world, striking off places off my wanna-go list.

i just wanna master my ukulele.

i just wanna have endless good novels to read.

i just want my ipod/iphone to sustain enough battery the whole time im listening to songs.

haha. 

i am very weird.

6more working days to 2 gathering with my loves & moscato !

i just realised i have a bottle in the fridge waiting for me.

daym!

Make it alright.
Make it okay.
Let's give the final best shot.
Make it the grand finale.
Make it the best.



Just make it alright.
Just make it okay.












_____





Some soulmates aren't meant to be together. They make a trip and share a part of you life journey to tell you how much you deserves. How much someone can sacrifice for you & how impt you can be to someone.






"you were born because you're gonna be important to someone."

[AZIATIX] "Slippin' Away" - FULL MV

; Silence

one man show at ikea this noon.

just me & my music against the world.

strolling through the crowd with the infamous hotdog bun.

getting inspirations from the showrooms.

there i was, indulging in my playlist looking at

kids & toddlers running ard with genuine smiles & pure innocence.

teenagers that give "there-she-go-again" look behind their parents.

couples bikering.

couples trying to describe layouts of what seems their new kitchen with big hand movements.

elderly walking ard aimlessly with no expressions.

ppl, a mad number of them rushing to get a table at the cafe area.

aunties, trying to dig of that one pc of furnitutre at the very back of the rack.

occasional lock-eyes with an eyecandy (why that angmo so hot & cute!) whom i keep bumping into.

strangers giving me a 2nd or 3rd look (blushed !)

strangers looking at me with woah-eyes at my big baggage.

lugging my way home on public transport with a bag twice my size.

its amazing when you see yourself in someone else.

the way you acted when you were a kid, a teenagers & as a couple

above all,

the silence, the calmness.

being myself despite alone.

its been a while since i actually went out alone,

cut off from technology (other than my songs) cause starhub's been a bitch,

i had no reception the whole time i was in the building.

surrounded by strangers,

but i dont feel so alone.

it felt good actually.

to be able to get what i want on my own,

with my own strength, literally.

though i didnt manage to get everything.

my back was seriously aching from the load after a while.

today,

a lil part in me died.

cant quite figured exactly which part is it.

but i remembered saying something, something that i will feel sad back then.

yet i didnt quite felt the sadness at that point of time.

& from all the ive heard today..

the conversations of strangers,

the conversations of friends,

the conversations, all of them.

of some i felt if it was me,

i would do it in a heartbeat, without thinking too much into it.

i would.

i just wanted to be there.

even if i couldnt help much.

just being there. maybe i could put across a smile or fits of laughters ?

but the immediate anwerss? hmm.

it seem like my presence isnt able to be able to make a difference.

then i remembered,

how ppl would wanna talk to me when they are feeling low or messed up.

how i am always the 1st they run to, happy or sad.

they told me, i made them feel safe, comfortable & better.

someone always used to remind me how my presence was all it takes to make everything better, to end the day smiling.

maybe i should get some sleep in the super-comfy-yet-i-cant-figured-why-i-cant-sleep bed now.
tata!

Lady Gaga - Marry The Night (Official Video)

gotta admit, she wows !

love her toned body.

i want!

Count On Me/1234

she plays it like the ukulele is a part of her.

built together in her.

damm!

i admit.

im jealous.

HAHAHAHAHAAHA!

Count On Me - Bruno Mars Lyrics

this to all my loves !

i found the ukulele tutorial for this song.

that guy makes learning easy man!

a lil more practice!

& i'll try recording it.

hahaha! like a pro.

BUT IM NOT! ITS JUST FOR FUN :D

playing ukulele makes me happy.

its music.

no one can take music away from me!

In the pursuit for happiness,
We stumble & fall.
Over & over again.
For the one word: happiness


But what do we really know about happiness?
Do you really know what is happiness?
Frankly speaking, I don't.



Happiness can be doing what you love.
Happiness is children's laughters.
Happiness is seeing your best friends happy.
Happiness is enjoying your fave drink.
Happiness is spending time with love one.



There are so much lil happiness ard us, everyday.

Think of it,
Then what are we exactly looking for?





___




My words, misunderstood as fits of anger. I'm helpless over the screen.






The tug of war between the masculinity & femininity of me.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm asking too much. At the same time, the femininity of me begs to differ.


A part of me think it's only normal, a part of me thinks it's asking too much.







Maybe I don't deserves anyone.
Maybe I don't.









I think I've fallen hard this time.
With the grey skies above, I'm dont think im gonna be ok for a while now.






I'm sorry my friends,
It's time again for me to withdraw socially.









"that's why you get when you let your heart wins."








Goodbye.

; for FIR with love

i just like my outfit that night.

i really need to try to dress up when i go out.

my wardrobe has so much unworn pretty pieces. damm. 

fyi, this 2 pieces was bought a yr ago -.-

a dress & a skirt. sigh.

got fir's pressie with ass before making our way to dins!

Fisherman's market. totally more than what we expected.

we reckon it was something like fish&co or manhattan fish market.

HA! turn out to be a seafood buffet!

think chilli crabs, sashimi & etc!

& i spam a lil too much on the crabs, prawns & salmon.

which resulted in a not so good ending later that night.

sukiyaki salmon. we lost count.

my bowl of mussels, prawns & crabs. i lost count

my first creme brulee!

i wouldnt have tried it, if its not for buffet.

& i regret not trying it before this.

HEAVEN!

i had like 3 to myself ? *faint*

HAHA!

REBEL, kinda like our homeground :D
i actually shuffled. *smack head*
but it was smooth, im surprised!

khai bought us a jug each.

+ my complimentary drink + jaggerbombs.

i couldnt help but threw up.

HAHAHA !

my body rejects jaggerbomb much!

home sweet home.

i managed to get into a cab home by myself.

albeit i was walking damm fast. haha!

im proud of the fact though.

i can survive on my own.