"Life has so many great options but you don't have to pick what seems to be the best. Just pick what makes you happy and it will be the best."

Favourite girls.

funny, cause we've never talked to each other in school back then.

& now, we talked like always.

Unrecognizable state.

You shut me away,
At this point of my life.

I just wanna go away. Disappear. Vanished.







Silence, A Woman's Loudest Cries.
I finally understand.

If i did something wrong,& you're pissed.
It's acceptable, my bad & I'm ok with you being pissed.

If I pissed you off, tell me straight in the face.


BUT!


If I did not do anything, you do not have the rights.
Bloody hell, pms worse than me.
Nobody shouts at me for nothing.
Nobody. Period.

; a painful realization






Im really curious,
Does it makes you feel better?



Go run run run,
I'm Gonna stay right here.
& watch you disappear.

Decisions.
Dilemma.
Turmoil.
Heartaches.
Sweat.
Macha softserve.
Sleepy.


That's all for today.
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER (:
through the fights(literally), quarrels, bickering,
Laughters, protections & surprises.
18yrs & counting.
Love you (:


But pls stop owning my gadgets ):
(yeah, always kena owned by this lil boy)
Always my lil bro, no matter how you aged 

had.a.2.hr.talk.with.bestie.
how.am.i.not.gonna.miss.this.girl.
with.similar.encounters.of.family.friends.and.lovers.
we.just.know.


not.that.shes.going.away.for.at.least.4.months.
i.wanna.cry.
ill.miss.you.truckloads.full.to.the.max.
cause.ill.have.one.less.person.to.curse.and.swear.to.laugh.and.crazy.ard.
cause.simply.ill.just.miss.you.






i.need.a.personal.yoga.mat.
fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.
i.hate.it.when.theres.constanly.many.things.running.in.my.mind.constantly.
yeah.its.ongoing.all.the.time.
i.cant.help.it.
its.like.a.mega.construction.sitting.in.the.head.
thatll.keep.going.on.
cause.the.architect.isnt.pleased.with.the.result.
yes.the.architect.being.me.
and.sometimes.it.gives.me.a.bad.headache.big.time.
i.said.big.timeeee.




i.hope.whoever.you.are.who.is.reading.this.gets.a.headahe.big.time.too.
yes.i.am.very.volatile.now.
as.volatile.as.dow.jones.or.futures.
i.personally.call.them.the.graphs.
i.like.to.name.things.to.my.own.likings.
&.that.is.so.random.
cant.believe.i.just.said.that.out.
alright.type.them.out.happy?






im.not.happy.
im.not.gonna.please.you.by typing.properly.
i.do.feel.better.now.trying.to.get.you.who.is.reading.a.headache.
ok.just.a.teeny.weeny.bit.
maybe.because.im.a.hungry.woman.still.
a.hungry.woman.is.a.angry.woman.
ok.i.dont.understand.why.i.just.type.that.out.





im.difficult.to.handle.hard.to.please.
you.agree.too?
you.know.why?
cause.you.dont.know.me.and.my.stories.
or.any.of.my.issues.
kthnxbye.




nah.i.dont.want.to.bye.yet.
but.im.running.outta.things.towrite.
ok.fine.TYPE.





what.a.bitch.fit.
dont.call.me.a.bimbo.
fcuk.you.






what.the.hell.was.that.for.melly?


&.randomly.i.dislike.inititating.
i.prefer.being.inititated.
period.






kthnxbye.
really.la.

"love, is letting go of fear."

(found this on a blogger's blog)

love, is letting go of fear.

love, is entrusting that one person with your heart.

hoping they wont break it.

love, is smiling silly with that one person.

love, is seeing how worst he/she can get yet still find him/her imperfectly perfect.

love, is doing things that even you're amaze of what you can achieve.

love, is a peaceful haven for two.

love, is bickering.

**

tell me what you wanna hear
something that'll like those ears
dont need another perfect lie
dont care if critics ever jumps in line

till all my sleeves are stained red
from all the truth that ive said
come by it honestly i swear
thought you saw me wink
no, ive been on the brink.

Random thought @ mid-noon;

I wonder how it feels when you're yelling at a guy,
& then he just grab you & kiss you in the middle of the sentences.
Hahahahahahah :D

Of cause, not just any guy la.





The weather is So nice ~~
Sighhhhh.

Today is feel-fat day ):




MrFat palm's smell transfer omto my pjs!
I smell like a baby now.
*melts bigbig time*

"To be happy everyday.
not all-day, but everyday"




I still rem i used to live by this quote.
but ive forgotten how to.





for all things that i couldnt have or achieve.
i'll make sure someone deserving or whom i deem deserving have it.






sometimes i feel dumb, silly.
why bother about others when you cant even handle yourself.
but this is just me.
sacrificing time and what not.
i dont feel wasted.
so long as i get to see smile lit up on your face.




to those few whos constanly protecting my heart and smiles for me,
i know your good intentions.
but,
dont scold me stupid.
dont argue im dumb.
i just wanna be happy.




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i somehow just dont know how.

my best creation (:

healthy doesnt mean sucky tasteless food!

the korean bbq got me hooked on to carrots.

best snacks!

(my chin! yes ah!)

that day where we 5 tied the same hair.

french plaits day. 

& got the other collegues mistaken us for one another.

hahahahahaha :D

Jang Shou Korean BBQ. (again)

for HY'S birthday though.

alot of koreans patronises here. 

best damm thing ever.

AirCon to feel better after the oil.

Photo-Of-the-Day xD

Birthday Boy !

Gym (:

 My new buddy! 

yayness! more motivation for gym :D

nv underestimate yoga and the photos youve seen.

its the most grueling thing ever to master.

same goes to pilates.

hahaha! i influenced my colleagues to go.

slowly slowly get the rest to go.

everyone think its a relax thing.

well, TRY IT! TRY ME!

waahahahahahahah :D

Jessie J - Who's Laughing Now

back in school,

call me names and push me down.

look, whos laughing now.

haha

4 1/2 hrs of gym with favorite girl.
Ok, 1 of 2 of my favorite girl.
Haha!


Shiok ttm! My abs are hurting badly.
Which greatly signifies that I have worked all out today.
:D





Put some perfume on MrFat palms to cover up the Lemongrass smell.
(shouldn't have bought that bottle)
Damm! It's smells like sweet lemon candies instead la 


My plans for
Tonight is totally screwed.
At least it's delayed, not entirely gone.
But still, that means no travelling to the places I'd wanna go.
Cause it'll have been a better ambience of Cause.



I feel like a retarded moron.
Cause I'm playing with MrFat.
Squishing squashing him, trying to squash some expressions outta him.
I still rem, I used to make him look like what I'm feeling at the moment.
Say, angry? Emo? Or bored.

Ok, I really feel like a freaking crazy moron, talking to him.
I should get a nap now.9

Wish You Were Here

Wish You Were Here

There're only 2 categories of men in the world.

;the family guy -- lovey dovey, everything nice & mentally satisfying
;the ambitious guy -- decision maker, dominator & a perfectionist.



& you can only have either.




A family guy without ambition.
Or the ambitious guy who's not lovey dovey.




Someone told me,
You can only have one.
You might find a loving ambitious man.
But thats like a few in a whole whole lot of them.







But I'd still wanna believe I can find a guy who ambitious yet loving to me.
If he truly loves me,
Take it as I'm naive or greedy.
But I believe so.








Ok, fine.
I'm Not 100%sure.





Damm, this post is totally not making any sense now.

GREAT!
I thought today is Tuesday.
Wtf is wrong with me nowadays!?!?


I really wish for a normal working hrs.
But I've fought so long alr.
So long, to have a stand In here.
So long, to have my voice heard.
So long, to have a place here.



Grant me a lil more faith.
Grant me a lil more strength.
It's getting harder as each day passes.

I Wanna Go TW !

but not till i settle my room.

maybe next birthday ?

if i muster enough courage to go alone that is.

to travel with friends.

it must be with the correct grp that really do travelling.

to go alone.

i can go anywhere.

own time own target.

ok, whatever.

till then, i shall do my homework.

; Beautiful Songs

if im thinnier, prettier, 

i think i can pass off as some watches' ambassador eh.

:D

Daily dose of comfort;

hippie style

All band-up style;

I Am Mr Fat. 

:D 

sometime back @starbucks,

While waiting for Fir&Sarah;

breathe in breathe out

breathe in breathe out

i miss my pilates and 2 other class.

im fcuking hungry now

So,
Ytd I went on a crazy writing spree.
Was so pissed.


Cause bearbear vent his anger on me ><
damm the trainee who made him angry.
Which indirectly make me angry!



The whole night was in silence.
So weird & akward!
Pouts big time, BIG TIME!




So I vent my anger on my pens & the worksheets.
I think my poor management team will have a lil hard time trying to decipher my writings.
2pens went dead on me.




Sigh.
& bestie is leaving sg for 4months.
I have no mood now.

A good morning text does not only mean "Good morning".
It has a silent, loving message that says...
"I think of you when I wake up."




Hands are breaking.
Inks are finishing.
I need more pens!




Jurong island nightsky can be so beautiful.
awwwwww~

想了很久，
我决定了。
是时候放过自己，换个健康一点的环境。
精神与体力上的环境。



但在我离开时，
我会用这几个月的时间，把幸福借给你。
希望你从此不在为她而折磨自己。
不，不需要你把借来的幸福换给我。
你只需要让我做完我曾经为你计划过和想要为你做的事情。



不想再为你而折磨自己，我累了。
我知道你也经常会来这看一看，
所以我偶尔会把一些心情用着华语拼出来。
因为知道你对华语一巧不通，
也太了解你的个性，
所以，我知道我在你心里的位置。



这是我最后能够做的事。



也就是要你开心。

Atelophobia:
The fear of imperfections.
The fear of never being good enough.


I think i have atelophobia.
Very much.
Very very much.

Finally found one good drama: 醉后决定爱上你.

Apart from the mouth drooling look so good actors & actresses.
This show makes me think much.
Can totally relate to parts and pieces of it.






因为不肝心，
所以还没放弃。
那何时才肝心？
天真，无理趣闹，我承认。
哪怕是因为喜欢得太深，失去了理知。
搞得一团糟，迷失了自我。



Just awhile more, just awhile.