ling ling (:

having toothache now,

after downing 2 chewy junior.

had koi for few days straight as well.

&, i feel very fat now T.T

but what to do right.

i just feel happy drinking koi.

i drink koi when im happy (hmm?)
i drink koi when im upset.
i drink koi when i feel like the world is fml-ing.
i drink koi when im sick.
(it really cures. or maybe just psychologically)
i can drink koi and not eat anything for the whole day. seriously.
been there. done that.
(just one big cup is sufficient)
my record was: 2 koi in a day.
 (it was a lil overboard i admit. HAHA!)

I can do a detour otw home just to get it.
I can queue 20 mins for it.
get frustrated standing there like idiot.
yet smile like a fool when my koi is done.
hahahaha xD

but seriously, they should get more staff man.
i so want to get koi at clementi to work la.
but everytime i see the queue, sigh !
it only get more depressing cause they dont do advance order for koi clementi anymore.
its RIDICULOUSLY long.
almost like iluma's.
i wonder where all these ppl pop up from.
infuriating. period.



the whole point is: i drink koi as and when i think/need/want it !

it reminds me of happy things, anything happy & everything happy.

haha.
well, lets just say:

the world just seems like a better place as
I lay back, relaxed with a koi in my hand & look at the people in the world goes round.
*roll eyes laughing*

i must find substitues alr.

something that has nth to do with FOOD.

gosh.

im not what you think i am.

tattoo artist: Beh Zi Chao

fierce ?

amaze me.

enchant me.

amuse me.

enrage me.

upset me.

dissappoint me.

hurt me.

kill me.

id rather feel something than not to feel anything at all. Now.

Random day out to get some loots.

ended up with durian pancakes and playing ard with pudding camera. Again.

haha!

Meetup with JianHui Zishan & Vince

trying out the pudding camera we got tog in our phone coincidentally.

and going crazy with the functions.

resulting in narcissm.

Kenko FishSpa at Marina Square:



  

OVERWHELMED.

I'm in a whirlpool of emotions and thoughts.

what if.

if only.

but.

maybe.

fuck my mind.

the lack of sleep only makes it worst.

try sleeping only in 11 hours in 72 hours.

very much exhausted,

body's giving up on me.

well done.

appetite has been either very good or very bad.

either eating alot, like ALOT.

or not eating at all.

well done x 2 !

this whole month of october?

is a world war 3.

can i cry ?

这时候谁都别来安慰, 拥抱.

对着镜子我承诺,

迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容

死不了就还好.



stay strong for yourself.

I love(?) my job !
because it allows me to tone my arms and legs.
like seriously, i have muscles now.
-.-"


theres alot of pictures yet to load.
fish spa,
Victor and Serene's bdae,
D&D,
stuffs over the weekends (which has compiled into months alr !)

and before i could find the time to settle all of the above,
there lil sis birthday coming up, im in charge of planning. fingers crossed.
and SENTOSA !
finallly, im becoming as pale as vampire.
Tammy thinks im a cullen(me like though).
hahaha !




and alot of stuff for this pathetic blog, with all the disabled links at the side,
& my missing chatbox.
i doubt anyone read these though.
but then again, its for me to read baq eh ?









Im exhausted. physically. mentally.
but im still as strong.
on the outside.



if only theres 48 hours in a day,
then we wouldnt hafta OT.
then i would have much more time within my grasp to accomplish some stuff.
then i would have more me-time.
then i wouldnt be that exhausted.
then i would have been much more happy.
then i would be smiling and laughing like i mean it. from my heart.
then again, i wouldnt be the girl i am now.







all the things that goes on in one life at any point should only mould you into a stronger person.
and i strongly still believe that whatever that dont breaks me will only makes me stronger.
glad that nth ever breaks me.
For i am Melisa.

Ke$ha - Your Love Is My Drug

Maybe I need some rehab,
Or maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams


I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love

Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!
My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

if perfect's whats youre searching for, then just stay the same.

when i see your face, thats not a thing that i would change,

cause youre AMAZING just the way you are.

whats left of me?



Hi Mum,

where were you when i needed you ?

where were you when i wanted a motherly figure?

where were you when im lost?

where were you when i lost a gf or close friend?

where were you when i had my 1st heartbreak ?

where were you when i needed guidance ?

where were you when i need someone to confide things to ?

someone who believes in me, her daughter.

where were you when i wanted support ?

where were you when i wanted a pat or a hug & tell me"its ok, im here" when i break down ?

where were you ?

i needed you.

i wanted you.

i hated you.

i was angry that i grow up without a mum.

i was jealous of others who had their mothers thats always there, who did thing tog with them.

but will my hatred makes you come back ?

i didnt think so.

maybe one day, i'll find the strength to forgive you.

maybe in time to come.

for blood will always be thicker than water.

cant believe i still want you.

after all the things we've been through,

i miss everything about you.

without you.

but i've never told you what i should have said.

no, i never told you.

i just held it in.