Hi Mum,

where were you when i needed you ?

where were you when i wanted a motherly figure?

where were you when im lost?

where were you when i lost a gf or close friend?

where were you when i had my 1st heartbreak ?

where were you when i needed guidance ?

where were you when i need someone to confide things to ?

someone who believes in me, her daughter.

where were you when i wanted support ?

where were you when i wanted a pat or a hug & tell me"its ok, im here" when i break down ?

where were you ?

i needed you.

i wanted you.

i hated you.

i was angry that i grow up without a mum.

i was jealous of others who had their mothers thats always there, who did thing tog with them.

but will my hatred makes you come back ?

i didnt think so.

maybe one day, i'll find the strength to forgive you.

maybe in time to come.

for blood will always be thicker than water.

cant believe i still want you.

after all the things we've been through,

i miss everything about you.

without you.

but i've never told you what i should have said.

no, i never told you.

i just held it in.