The girl you just called fat? 
She is overdosing on diet pills.


The girl you just called ugly? 
She spends hours putting makeup, hoping people will like her.


The boy you just tripped? 
He is abused enough at home.


See that man with the ugly scars? 
He fought for our country.


That guy you just made fun of for crying? 
His mother is dying.





You don't know how they feel until you walk a mile in their shoes.




















the girl you just called fat and made fun of ? 
she's been trying of kinda diet, work out even when tired and is food conscious now.


the girl you just called ugly because of her acne scars/pimples/charred lips?
is on medication now to get rid of them. doc strongly believe its stress & lack of slp.
charred lips is due to medications.










dont judge,
dont label.




















______
















im craving for food now.
which means im recovering.
$100 )):

1 sandwich in the morning,
7 mini sushi in the late noon,
3 coffee throughout.


super High in the morn till aunt red pay a visit.
Exploding head,
Nauseous me.
Super cramp abdominem.
Cold sweat.
This month has just gotten worst.





Pls no mc no mc no mc no mc.
3 more working days.
Lemme recover tonight.
I don't wanna fall sick,
I'll yearn for care.




I don't wanna see doctor~~

假如

假如有一天你想哭，打电话给我，
不能保证逗你笑，但我能陪着你一起哭；
假如有一天你想逃跑，打电话给我，
不能说服你留下，但我会陪着你一起跑；
假如 有一天你不想听任何人说话，打电话给我，
我保证在你身边，并且保持沉默。
假如有一天我没有接电话，请快来见我，
因为我可能需要你。

我们都是没有安全感的人，患得患失，
但是这种感觉又无法消除，纵使自己知道有些无理取闹，
但就是想要证明自己的重要性。
明明是依赖，却要表现出无足轻重的样子；
明明是在意，却要表现出毫不在乎的样子。
这样的我们，该如何是好。。

Woke up from a sweet dream.
Force myself baq to slp.
What seems like few mins was another HR of slp.



Silly.






Sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare.
Either way, I don't wanna wakeup.

I is no like this !

I wanna eat mooncakes.
I wanna go somewhere windy.
I wanna smell that comfort smell.
I wanna cuddle in bed.
I wanna scream.
I wanna stare in blank for awhile.
I want someone to tuck me into bed till I fall aslp.
I wanna go gym & sweat for 3hrs again.
I wanna go gym & finish with that lil blush on the face, the perfect messy hair & the feel-so-good abs again.
I wanna watch one nice tw/Hk drama then cry at the endings & feel silly.
I wanna hug MrFat and slp like nobody business.
I want rainy mornings & nights.
I wanna be selfish for awhile and have you all by myself.
I wanna be pampered like the queen of the world for a day.
I want someone to take in all my rantings & complains for awhile.
I wanna go on a date, I miss that feeling.
(yeah, I do not have a date. Don't remind me)


I want you to tell me every single feeling.
I want you here now!
Cause I miss you so ~








Bwahhhhhh!
Pre-period syndromes.
Get the hell outta me,
I'm so tortured inside.
Fuck!

my life.

1 week, 7 days, 178 hrs


4 days, 48 hrs; work
+ 12 hrs of travelling time.


2 x morning shift, 12 hrs; sleep
2 x night shift, 12 hrs; sleep.




in cases of OT, 24 hrs gone.
left with 24 hrs of free time,
if i were to sleep it off ? wasted.
if i were to not sleep? drop dead tired.
if i were to go out ? then who?





when i make time outta my time,
then whatever it is & whoever you are,
it must have really matter alot alot ALOT to me.





waking up to a house of everyone either asleep or not at home.
going to work facing either jovial or pissed off people (mostly pissed off).
coming back home to a house of everyone either asleep or not at home.









It's no longer a question of independency.
It's no longer a debate of weak or strong.







cause even the greatest man fears,
even the greatest man cries.
there's nothing wrong.
the only wrong; self-denial.

My $8 shorts.

replacing my fave lost shorts ):

Aggressive but I like /

Had one of the best weekends.
Time well spent.



Hopes more of such would come.






__



So, I'm feeling ever grouchy now.
Even after working out.
Don't even have the heart to work out.
The swollen areas, the aching back.


Dear 大姨妈,
you Want jiu come rightaway.
Don't torture me ):








___





What time is it where you are?




Booooooo ~~





Hoping for a lil news.
Ah, wishful thinking.

 People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,

people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,

you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,

people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,

someone could destroy overnight.

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,

they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,

people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,

and it may never be enough;

Give the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis

it is between you and God;

it was never between you and them anyway.

- Mother Teresa

someone once told me, and constantly reminded me 

to change my nature.

to not to be kind to ppl, nice to ppl, good to ppl.

at times, i find it true.

cause ppl keep taking advantage of it.

over & over again.

(& now at work? im being shoot for things ive never done.

& clear ppl's shit for nothing.)

but ill remain true to myself.

yes, i can change, to a cynical person to fit into this cynical world.

just because of those handful ?

no! its not worth it.

others will be harmed/hurt by my transformation.

because of these people.

i tried.

& i was so depressed by the things ive done.

i do not wanna fit into this mould,

 to fit into this cynical world.

there's no need to for me to change.

i just needa be flexible towards people.

certain people, certain attitude.

thats the max i'll do.

to protect myself.

& to y'all who thinks im nice to be bullied.

you watch.

imma ticking bomb.

& there's only so much that i can contain.

_|_

I made mistakes,
I'm human.
BUT I ADMIT.


Freaking pissseddddd.






It's not acceptable!
Work how long alr?!

不要去欺骗别人，因为你能骗到的人，都是相信你的人。
不要去伤害人，因为你能伤害的人，都是对你不设防的人。


Don't lie to others,
Cause those who believe in your lies are the ones who trusted you.
Don't hurt others,
Cause those who got hurt by you are the ones who didn't guard themselves against you.




As you read the above,
Think about those who held you close, treated you well.
Think about your "him/her"



Certain things won't pass you twice.
Certain things don't come with a second chance.
Certain things has a hefty pricetag beyond the naked eyes.


It doesn't matter how big or small the lie/hurt is.
Every lil thing matter.



Are you prepared to pay the price?

.

; One step at a time 

Taylor Swift - Sparks Fly

perfect song!

"who needs a diary when we've got taylor swift"

summing up 6 days.

work:

town on a friday, very precious.

cause all my weekends were burnt at work!

a random girl came running after me when we're walking.

& asked where i gotten these wedges.

ROFL!

pangseh by sh, hy and sarah couldnt make it ):

best things on their menu ever:

& i think ive never tried other stuff before. LOL!

hooked on vinegar @ chichi restaraunt.

since that day my friend dipped his sesame pancake (dessert!) & ate with vinegar,

i decided to try.

AWESOMEEE!

; Childhood

we went to the zoo, zoo, zoo ~

life saver!

recently, the heat & humid weather makes me develop rashes easily.

didnt used to be like this ):

& as usual, scratch marks T.T

Fave 2!

"KL TWIN TOWER" :D

Fave girl!

craft work really makes me concentrate so well that i dont think of anything else.

art, music.

ah, my love.