Cruising along S baby.

Can't get enough of macky.
Still much I needa install and dl.
Freakishly pack all the way till don't know when.

& dad add in cheenatown cny stocking up.
& mummy organise shopping spree tml with daddy and aunt.


I've still not trim my very long fringe.




Mind set on that pair of heels.
It's a pair worth lusting for.
& it's cheap!
Ops!



Gonna get 1 organizer tml.
Really need 1 badly.
Or so it seems.

collected my Mr Macky today.

dad fetch me to & fro after me waking up and yang-orh with him xD

i love daddy (:

treat him to koi.

he finished it up like uber fast!

thats means he like it.

cause he only favours hot drink much.

heee ^^

Mr Macky is so pretty much.

esp with the backlit keyboard.

yes! i have a thing for things that sparkles (stars!) and backlit stuff.

& indeed, mac being mac.

ITS SO DIFFICULT TO GET USED TO IT.

considering imma window-os user since the very start.

its a lil depressing that i hafta return to work tml.

but money's good !

so, shant complain.

work = money.

go out = no money.

HAHA!

 

What if the one thing that could make you smile silly is the one thing that's not good for you?

What would you do?
Oh dear koi, you really wanna do this to me meh?
Tsk! Fattening lei.

& i dont have any choice. do i ?

"You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have"

- Margaret Mead #DRT 

but can i just not be for awhile ?

5 mins?

ive got a lil bit of everything in my mind.

a lil bit of everyone's problem.

cause it seems that i hafta be strong for everyone, every moment.
so strong that im not allowed to even breakdown.
seems that i hafta be calm and compose every moment.
seems that i hafta be ready on my mind and feet every moment.

even if its just a strong front.
i just wanna unguard myself for awhile.
put down the cover & be a weakling timid girly girl.
& it seems as though i do not have time for it.

 

can i have more of happy-ness purrrleaseee ?

can i have someone who can be strong for me?
can i have someone that sees me more than i am?


 

Insanity is the new sane.

need an organiser real bad !


im practically losing track of time, things planned and to-do.
somedays, i thought today was the date before.
somedays, i thought today is the day after.
somedays, i dont rem what plans have i got the next few days.
(worst still, what so i hafta do tml)
somedays, i dont rem what i hafta do next.
(when a min ago, i was telling myself "next, will do this.')
somedays, i plan things over plans. (crashing up plans)




this bad. real bad.
ive aged tremendously. mentally.
too much adrenaline rush at work?
haha! we could all hardly rem whats is not busy.





note to self: take things slower, think a lil slow.
but then again,
i'll be damm disappointed with myself if i dont complete what i want in a given time i gave myself.


just recently, i worked non stop for 4 hrs (no break in between).
i refuse to even sit down, rest for awhile or whatever.
cause i thought that i could complete at least something.
& YET I STILL DINT MANAGE TO COMPLETE ANYTHING!!

- slot icp,
- slot tan/tbn,
- check qc
- weigh tan/tbn,
- do vis,
- wash beakers,
- prepare titrant.
- copy results.

apparently, they left me with no titrant when they went home.
great, and the solvents needed hafta take from store.
& my precious icp start to give me probems over problems.
HA! good timing!





walk here walk there.
hardcore exercising of the arms and legs.
and the end of the day?
nth was completed fully, all half half.
& i was so worn out, i could hardly stay focus in any conversation.
i felt so bad, so guilty /:




& many times, i feel like breaking down @ handover.
cause i failed myself, my expectations.
i know im not superwoman.
i know human cannot complete so many tasks in such timing.
i know even if i dont smoke, dont eat & dont rest,
the end product will still be un-finish work.


so much for being a perfectionist eh ?




someone once told me: "no expectations = no disappointments"
BUT !!! how to have no expectations for myself ?!?!
i cant do that.
failed terribly.




*dear blog, i just wanna whine.
cause there's no one would wanna hear me whine. im sorry bloggy*





& so explain the title of this post.
we figured few nights ago: if youre not insane, that means youre not working.
hahahaha!
crashing crashing crashed.
mr fat, im coming !

“A good life is when you assume nothing, do more, need less, smile often,

dream big, laugh a lot and realize how blessed you are for what you have”

flu-y virus came to visit me today.
i burst into fit of sneeze at one go suddenly. too many times.
or someone misses me ?
haha.




letting the hint of lemongrass ease my mind (& the flu-y) to sleep.

Cause baby, you're firework.

@xueling's (:


Listening to Katy Perry and doing Katy perry's opi collection.
Love her maximum.
I feel so Les.




I must say though, I LOVE MY NAILS (:
din in awhile's time.
& they must be so grateful to me.
Cause the best durian smoothies with whole chunk of real meat is otw !!

& i dont know how to be;

well, lazy sunday at home as it is.
pack about 3/4 of the room alr.
the amount of thrash is scary within 1 1/2 hrs.
deadbeat aftermath.
hafta phone bro to come home and drag the whole lot wo the rubbish chute.
HAHA!





ive finally declutter the wardrobe.
& goodness, the old old stuff dated wayyyyy back was digged out.
i look at those clothes and laugh to myself.
i didnt realise they were still hiding in there.
now the wardrobe look much better.
on the inside.


the outside is ......
the condition is ....
need a new wardrobe T.T
the current one is as old as i am.
or maybe older !





pack the books & impt documents aside.
& im shocked with the amount of books ive read (:
&& eveything shall stay in the boxes till i revamp the room.







so went parkway with NJH.
HZS was like studying for test so no show.
yup, working alr yet still hafta study for certifying test -.-


yada yada yada ~
& Mr Macky will come on friday *smiles widely*
which spells SHIT on the other hand.
because NJH will be busy "defending the nation's skies".
so in another words,
im left to my own device *POUTS BIG TIME!*





dang !

Taylor Swift Last Kiss Lyrics (full)

she almost cried singing.
i wanna hear it live !

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover Official Video

like songs like this.
soft melody, clear crispy voice.


listen with your ears, feel with your heart.
imagine in your head even if the song doesnt/does describe you.
only then, youd feel the song.




get music-drunk ppl !

Like a thousand knives.

My chest hurts.
Suddenly.
Sharply.
Badly.
A couple of times alr.
& I think it's serious.
Or is it not?






Dammit.
I need a doc. Now.

Katy Perry - Firework (Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2010) Live

look how she strut down the runway.
awesome max.
she's my icon.



C's the word baby.

2 1/2 dudes.

Din with the bros at FEP (:
& i got my CNY dress & my 2 fave parfums.



I like it so much that i so wanna wear it on the weekends.
haha.
nope. gonna contain the excitement *breathe in breathe out*
& they were patient all the way, making sure i left FEP with the stuffs i had in mind.
& there were like great songs in on the shops i went into.
which is great cause it entertain the guys somehow.
& also make shopping a nice atmosphere ?
fireworks played 4 times in a row in diff shops/area.
LOL!





gotta trim the tresses and get the nails done.
my nails are cui ttm.
cause of work.
some bottles are just annoying & irritating to open up.





BONUS IS IN.
WOOOHOOOOO !









"not everyone's cut out to be the open book and an easy read. just as it takes patience to plough through different genres of literature, some take more precise reading than others. over time, you tend to hone a cynical edge that may cloud your vision as to what truly is important."

As one grow older, progresses in life.
you'd find more & more things that you can't accept.
Truth that you can't accept.
Facts that you'd find it hard to believe in.


Gone were the days when we were still a child.
The innocent sparkles in a child's eyes.
The purity of a child's heart & soul.
Thinking that everything is possible.
& you'll achieve it if you believe you can.




When you were a child, you watch superhero cartoons.
You took a blanket, tie it ard you and you became one.
When you were a child, you read fairytales,
took out your dresses and hairties & you became princess.




Now;
when someone say this is wrong,
you tell yourself, ya it wrong.
When someone told you eating this makes you fat,
you stop eating it though it makes you happy.
When someone tell you that you'll never achieve something,
you tell yourself, I'll never achieve it & you stop to even try.





Don't lose the child in you.
There's one in everyone.
None can deny.

Cause men still likes to watch spiderman, transformers and thing about technologies.
& women still has a softtoy they hug to bed & play dressup.

"sometimes youve to give yourself the permission to not be hardcore for once. you dont have to be tough every moment of every day. it's ok to let your guard down. in fact sometimes its the best thing you could do. as long as you choose your moments wisely."

Wants a bowl of that yummylicious chix cutlet noodles.


Dad hasn't been passing by changi v lately.
He used to pack that back for me for noon shift.
Twice.
But it's more than enough.
Cause he went there specially for me (:





It's been world war 3 again lately at work.
It's mad.
But we still do talk fun, do fun.
Like tryina make me talk in canto or asking me to say not nice words.
& I've got koi at work today!

Lil lil things that makes the day nice.

What good is it for you to gain the whole world,
yet forfeit your soul?



A qn before bed.
I like to think till I sleep.
Rather than mind fcuking, I thought this posed as a good one?




Would you prefer to lose yourself to gain the world/goals/aims?
Or would you not ?
Is it worthwhile at the end of the day?
Cause you'd prolly gain the whole world,
yet in the midst, you lost yourself, your mind, your love ones.


Hmm~
would I?
Idk.

I miss those stars.

staring back at me, as if they were blinking.

& i stood there, amazed.

& a lil carried away.

if we're gazing upon the same sky across the sea.



Its been long since I really step into compass point.
Well, I do step into compass.
But it only about mrt and bus.
& on days where i'm in noon shift,
I hardly see compass.


LOL!
& after so long, the 1st nice thing was to bump into 2 of my gf(:
it's been long huh, Celestine & Jolene?
We shall await reunion din!


My trip there was to get tomatoess.
Yes, I'm very determine to eat alot alot of tomatoes (one of my ny resolutions).
Haha!
& it end up that I bought enough groceries for dayss.
My arms nearly broke while lugging them all back.
Yup, I forgot I was alone.
& I totally feel like so old.
Imagine a woman with a bag on hand, & plastic bagss.
Walking home!




But the chilly air felt great(:
& homecooked food really makes me happy.
So, whatever.



Shan't turn on the com today.
I smell non-stop of web surfing.
& there's new collection coming up on bonito.

Better not.
Plus endless surfing = slp late & wake up late.
Shall be good today.




& if it all go great, I shall do it often.
Can't be so I-can't-survive-w/o-internet.

who you are - jessie j - lyrics on screen

& alas, the full song is up after monthsss.



tears dont mean youre losing.
everybody's brusing.
its ok to be not ok.

Reality check;

• don't expect anything from anyone.
Yup, anyone even your closest kin.
Cause you'll not know if they've made a deal with the devil.

• you want something from me or something back from me, tell me straight.
Dont coat it with honey onto me and say no, I don't mean it that way.
Its like taking your hands and slap yourself.

• no one will actually really be there for you in time to come.
So suck it up and gear yourself.
So you won't be in those moments where you really need someone & no one's there.

• I am beautiful. No matter what they say.
And words can't bring me down.
So don't you bring me down tonight.
Or any other nights.

• don't make your problem mine.
I won't make my problem yours anw.

• I don't live to please anyone.
So don't keep taking advantage of me being nice.
Cause I'll show you this _|_

• zzz

Colbie Caillat - I Never Told You

It sucks. really.

the daily hangouts for 2 days straight.

1st day; no tan.

2nd day (2hrs?); imma lobster now T.T

do miss the pool.

nice view yknow. hunks !

HAHA!

hate going overseas.

cause emtpying of luggage sucks.

& the past 2 trips back to sin,

is always rainy days,

& seats next to the wing of the airplane.

imagine the strong turbulence up in the air + tthe noise from the enigines.

i nearly died.

freaking headach-ish.

i so wanna break down, the pain was unbearable.

at the very moment, i so wished that someone/anyone can be there to comfort me dearly.

im not that strong ok!

imma woman tooooo.



Worst flight back.
)':


So want mr fat now. Booohooo.

must make something clear.
not all song posted represent me and my thoughts.
some relates me,
some reminds me of good times spent (im coming home).
some reminds me what i want to be (fireworks),
some just have nice mv and lyrics.
some just cause its my fave artist (think timberlake & taylor sswift)!!!
some have nice moves(think timberlake again, oh i miss out taeyang and neyo).
& some just caught my ears on the radio, colleagues & movies.





so, to know which song is which,
you must really know me well.

i certainly do make/have an impact on ppl.

Your Daily Horoscope



Your dreams and fantasies are more real than you know, Pisces. Smile at the people you pass and watch them smile back. Your sensitive and fun-loving nature is infectious. Use it to help heal others' wounds. Laughter is the remedy that cures all. Be conscious of your tremendous effect on others and spread the beauty that lives inside you.






--Horoscope.com
 
 
 
 
 
imma hack the luggage. pack when im home on wed morn.
and hit the sack now.
-=.=-

After dinner was,

•Long talks with the buds. LOL-ing at each person shits.
•tried conversing in Cantonese and got the whole OCM laughing.
& they keep corrupting me with vuglar canto words which makes Henry goes -.-
hahaha!
•laughing like mad was the aftermath.
I teared laughing at what I said. Yup, That jialat. ROFL!
•screwed up sample info on my precious.
I swear I felt like I just commit suicide.
Cause I hafta retype T.T



Laughing from the heart is still my best medicine.
If combined with choclates & music & koi,
I'll be like the happiest ever.

I'm that easily yet hard satisfied.
Retail therapy does work,
but it's only temporary.
Materialism's way of satisfactory just doesn't work for me I guess.
my satisfactory needs to come mentally. (thats the hard part).


one's mental is a complicated complex state.
bet none will disagree huh.





Oh ya, Allaboutpisces on Twitter?
It's creeping me out.
Everything is so right on the dot.
I feel like I'm stalked.
Haha!
When I say everything, I meant EVERYTWEET!


If anyone wants to understand me,
they should totally check the tweets out man.
It's like finally something understand me SO well.





LOL!
I'm tired T.T
& my luggage is unpacked.
& I still have not got home.
Dang!

Hey smile, don't frown.

I'm glad I'm who i am.
Cause I can multitask my mind.
It appears to be a virtue, an advantage to everyone who can't.
Everyone think im strong cause I'm all fun, all happy & all hyper.




Hiding in one corner pouring out to myself.
& go back in there bringing up the mood.



I'm a joke.
Yup, sucha a joke.
that I look at myself and laugh: "haha! Mel, you're a fcuking joke."

my friends will definately kill me.
if im gonna ring them up now for supper.



theyve been rolling their eyes these few days when i suddenly say: "Eh, im hungry alr."
randomly, outta nowhere, even when shopping & etc ...
ok, you get the drift.

they roll eyes on a hungry person /:
they ignore a hungry person's whines /:
& then they go "sigh, again.. (with this face >  -.-)"


HAHAHAHAHAHAH!





yup, even when i just ate hours ago.
they think imma monster.
cause somedays i cant eat, cant finish my one serving of normal meal
& somedays i eat like ALOT.








but im really hungry now *teary puppy eyes*

Joe Jonas & Demi Lovato - Camp Rock 2 - Wouldn't Change A Thing (Full so...

caught the movie.
this song just goes so well to the storyline.
dang youtube, cant post any video version.

A Lonely September - Plain White T's

no MV for this fab song ):


well, i just ...

when 2 working ladies goes shopping for CNY clothings,
they'll 90% end up buying clothes to wear for work A.K.A the basics -.-
& realise at the end of the day: "hey, i didnt buy anything for CNY? ): "


& then brought to drink a cuppa koi make it feel better.
yet dont feel better.
cause whats koi without what makes it koi ?



conclusion:
im not happy from retail therapy today.
& im still insisting on not taking any painkillers.
cause i will get addicted to them.
so F the pain but no.









sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare ?
either way, i dont wanna wake up from it.

I won't believe the thinGs I tell myself so late at night.
I'm my own worst enemy & I'll never win the fight.


Yup, I won't.
At least I'm trying.








I need my moment of solace.
Just when I wanna zone out, I can't.
Prays.

This chocolate craving isn't going anywhere.
It's not going off me !!!
& it likes to get when I can't find chocolates.
& everyone thought it was the mothly thing.
Looks like it isn't.



Grr. Where is my chocolates!

Dislike doing nothing!!

After eating choco with liqour & drinking compressor oil,
my phone decided to go on strike.
Dammit.



Prolly time to change phone.
Can't wait till contract ends alr I guess.
It's dying on me ):






I'm so bored, I can't keep still.
I needa keep myself busy.
Or I'll go haywire much.
Dang!




What should I do what should I do ......

room revamp (by birthday):

new bedframe.

bookshelves.

table ?

side table (maybe?)

curtains ? (but that'll mean constant changing. no ?)

mirrors !!!

photoframes ! for memory keepsakes.

repaint the walls. (need manpower lei. & who's able to sacrifice their time ??)

im thinking red and grey. hmm ~

must look ard.

else no work's gonna be done.

how much should i spend on these anw ?

ive no idea how much should i set myself to.

-.-

Tweets for now.

#Pisces has a great charm, allure, and inner strength, and is able to overcome most any obstacle in life.


There is a mysterious quality about a #Pisces Woman, because she is intensely private, discrete and secretive.

Relationships last long because TWO brave persons made a choice to KEEP, FIGHT & WORK for it. -@TRZRMKY #TLS

Its good to be a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important, you know. -Marilyn Monroe #TLS

Say what u mean & MEAN what u say. Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. #TLS

Just because you didn’t speak the facts out loud, didn’t erase their existence. Silence was just a quieter way to lie. #TLS

Beauty, to me, is about being comfortable in your own skin. -@creolexbaby #TLS

#Pisces needs to be appreciated. Otherwise they will retreat without warning. At that point, it is hard to win back their trust.

#MomentOfTruth A #Pisces can be brats when they don't get what they want... (HAHAHAHAHA!)

#Pisces woman are nice, friendly, non-judgemental, rude (at times), moody, in-consistent, bitchy, flirty, sensitive, sexy,

He's annoying, he's hilarious, he makes you yell, he drives you crazy, he's out of his mind, and he's everything you want. #factsaboutboys

#Pisces also possess a nearly psychic intuition that combines with those powerful imaginations of theirs

When a #Pisces is down and depressed, if they choose to open up, they can literally cry a river. We can only bottle it up for so long!

#Pisces are known for their ability to escape the everyday reality of life, drifting off into their own perfectly created world

"Innocent till proven guilty" Not with a #Pisces it's "Guilty till proven innocent" You got to Prove your love...
Sometimes it sucks being strong. Because when people know that u are strong, they think that it is okay to hurt you, over and over again.



Whenever someone judges u by your actions, rubs in your negativities.. know urself the best. People don’t tell u who u are, u tell them!
 
The best date is with someone who can take you anywhere without touching anything but your heart. -Einstein #TLS

maybe this is wishful thinking,

probably mindless dreaming.

i like this phrase.

Taylor Swift Performance live from AMA 2010

I FINALLY FOUND THE TITLE OF THIS SONG ((:
keep hearing from JA phone and forgetting the title he keep telling me over times.
(ah, here goes the forgetting thing again -.-)

taylor swift look so much nicer this way.

im soo full that im having a bad tummyache.

losing count of time recently.

could hardly rem things that happen a day ago or more than that.

routine confines my mind.

LOL!

must do something special everyday so i can rem everyday.

if not, im really aging mentally.

wth much -.-

haha!

& i actually forget im leaving for bali till just now.

great.

all the while i was thinking im not thinking about something, what did i forgot.

great x2.

will i forget my name one day ?

maybe lei.

hahahaha!

It's 30 mins alr. & I'm still ard jurong.
Taking company transport is total mistakes.
Alighting at woodlands and taking bus home,
the thought of it. Booohooo.


The noise and bumpy ride is making me drowsy.
Like a lullaby,
& I'm fcuking hungry.
Dang!




Resisting theqq
qllllpp
(i type the above 2 lines while tryina keep my eyes open.
Dint think I succeeded)


Got home 2 hrs after i finish work.
No din.
No koi.
No choco even(bro finished up the choco in fridge).
None of my cravings are met.
Not even my non-cravings.









There are things in life that one'll nv get answers to the qns one always ask themself.
That's why one will nv understand everything in life.
Simply cause one can't & won't be able to even if one wants to.

Justin Timberlake - My Love & SexyBack

justin timberlake is the sex !
so smart with all the smooth moves and dressing.
faint.



gotta hit the sack now.

Greyson Chance - Waiting Outside The Lines

for a while, i thought it was a female singing.
justin bieber much ?
na, i dont think so.
he's much much better.

Island Creamery rocks my socks !

ok, that was extreme.

but it's nice.

island creamery: have been hearing it for awhile yet no chance to go.

so inaccessible for what !

Reverso, Fresh Banana & Teh Tarik:

(guess which's mine?)

love the walls.

someone explain to me,

why must all good food be so inaccessible ?!

ive got like a list of places to go.

but cant !

dang!

Movie and Din (:

so, i finally went town after what seems so long.

for a movie in the cinema.

HA! when was the last time ?

hmmm~ cant rem xD

we were denied entry from ice cold beer -.-

so settle at Heaven's Loft.

i think i look vampire-ish.

HAHA!

sidetrack: whens the next eps of VD coming out T.T

& we were all waiting for this moment.

since we step into this cafe.

DESSERT!!!!

Our very own Samsung ambassador:



tadahs !

Gram's Bdae (:

As usual, we'll all gather at Mummy's place.

the younger generation will coop in the room.

and play whatever's there is.

and camwhore (with me xD)

Brother with his xmas pressie.

from his FRIEND (:

the house now smells like this perfume.

esp when he's going out. ROFL.

my little babes (:

tadah Brother & his friend. 

Gramp: why keep take picture?

me: Smile la.

Gramp: you want smile ? *take bread* smile (:

hahaha. cutest gramp. 

Xiao yi & the 2 lil babes. 

Papaloves (:

Gram's bdae cake has been log cakes for years. hahaha!

the only difference is the flavour and log shape.

SWEET (:

the 1st generation:

2nd Generation:

im ALWAYS the one cutting up the cake.

no matter whos bdae.

haha.

they got too bo liao.

till they pour out everything from the old tall glass coke bottle & count coins.



tadahs!