i dont wanna assume.

but i think i know what that means.

...

Could hardly rem the last time I slept so well Esp during red alert.
& wakeup feeling good & nice.
With no worries nor negative thinkings.
Just opening eyes and looking out to the blue blue skies.
Could easily fill the room or even the house with the music of the mood now.
Aww, envy me.






Ah. Life suddenly felt so good kinda feeling.
I must have not slept very well in the past months.
Practically worrying I'd wakeup late for work,
frantically scurry off the bed to prepare.




Ytd ended off good despite the sting & the sourness.
Today started off good.
Pls, end off as good.

I seriously hopes my day would end well.
Scratch followed by acid followed by a scar is not a very nice encounter.
It stings! It still stings!!!
Can't believe it.






My whole body is so suan ):

Oh well..

Looks like mr.Polaroid has gotta wait till next month. Again.
Just how long has I been saying next month?
After planning & savings for this month.
It's destined that we're not fated yet.
Soon! I'll make you mine!





No matter how much I try to not expect,
I still do, perhaps much lil as compared.
But there's still this teeny weeny light of hopes in me.
Ah & so they say,
things doesn't bring humans down, humans bring themselves down.

As true as it is.
I'm that cursed.
For years that has passed, & in many years to come.
I'm immune to it (:
I hope so.

"some sees productivity as a race, as a marathon. one that has no ends.
i see it as brisk walking, you doesnt have to be super fit to do it.
anyone can do it. you just have to build up your lungs capacity over time and slowly, you will go further.
it will become a habit."

- Mr Teo Chee Hean, budget debate

for myself;

w.e.f march onwards,




♥ im not gonna have any expectations on anyone or anything.
victim of disappointments, i no longer shall be.
the only target for expectations will be put on me & solely me.




♥ im not gonna focus on anything nor anyone that'll bring me misery,
or lets just say the bad emotions.
aiya, anything thats negative in general la.




♥ im not gonna do anything thats not me just to please anyone.
& at the same time,
just because im willing to do something, it doesnt means that im obliged to do it.








perseverance are only meant for things/people that deserves it.
& till then, dont say that ive given up.
cause i didnt, i never did.
i just chose to not show that i care anymore.


because showing it out became a weakness for people to use it back on me.

Finally!

Alas!
Something is completed at work.
Alas!
There's such thing call finishing at handover.
Alas!
I don't feel awful.




Alas!
The high performance energizer bunny gets to rest.
Heh! I like my name.




been mutitasking the mind lately,
along with workload & what I realized in the everyday life;
Kinda taxing on the mind.
But it does makes me wiser, or so I feel.







Admist all the ongoings in life,
there're things that cant be won,
for it's not a lone ranger war.

It's not up to humans to decide,
even if we want something badly.


For it has long been decided by whoever up there.
Of what's good & here to stay,
of what's needed & will complete us.

Whatever will be will be,
the future's not for us to see.