Cynisim;

early morning rainpour ruin my fave pumps !
it flooded it & it went outta shape after dried.
damm the guardhse for not letting cabs in.
ruin my outfit !




supposedly shopping and din on a sat night.
WILD HONEY was freaking packed.
so much for yearning to dine there like since it opened.


i have like a list, fucking long list of good places to dine.
but no one to go with.
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so, Tj Pagar for korean bbq.
yummy ! but not very filling for hungry me.





head over to chinatown for dessert and cantonese dumpling!
get shouted by china woman, NOT ONCE BUT TWICE !
& no more cantonese dumpling
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no shooping, no food.
just wanted to coop to myself the whole day man.
dont wanna talk, dont wanna open my mouth or anything.
i feel weird, fuuny.
idk why.






becoming more and more introvert.
what happen to me.
its like all i want now is to work & go home, work & go home.
& if i have sudden craving or things in mind to buy on off days or no ot day,
i'd just  take a train down to whereever it is, alone.
dont feel like talking to anyone or asking for accompany anymore.





there's no one strong enough for me to rely on,
no one could feel what im feeling.
& i pretty much had enough of rejections from everyone.
it always 'not free', 'today cannot', blah blah blah & sometimes i dont even get a reply.
tired of texting and not getting any acknowledgement back.










i do feel good in not depending on others to be happy.
just that, it makes me realise how alone i am.
most of the days now,
it only me and my music against the world.
the grown-up's world is cynical.









been cooping to myself for a long while now.
been doing too much things alone now.
shutting from others.
refusing to pour out.
(dont ask me what happen and when i wanna talk, none listen & yall start another convo topic)


















someone, save me ?
take me away.