April 9, 2011

Preparing for the next phase of life.
Finding my own identity.



Hearing the buddy at work welcoming the wedding bells.
Somewhat, myriad of feelings overwhelmed me.
Many things has been going on simultaneously in my life.
High expectations with pressure from everyone.
Coupled with my own expectations.
Ah, you can nv imagine how much I've been pushing myself.


Yeah, yet all I get back is:
She's lazy.
She's not good enough.
She's not doing her best.



Common!
You're not me.
You don't know how much exactly is going through my mind at one go.



Truth be told, I've surpass the limits of a 21yr old girl.
I'm def older in the thinking as compared to my peers.
Considering the things I've been through.



Yes, I do agree with "no one should be complacent."
But if you think that I'm not doing good enough,
Do it yourself.



I do not hafta please you.
I am me.
Or why don't you try pleasing me?






I will not change to something else just to please you or you and you.
I will only change for myself.
& this Is me.
Take it or leave it.






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Someday the perfect one will come along.
He doesn't hafta be perfect.
Because to me, perfect is when each other's good point compliment each others flaws.
& I'll know cause this man will complete my sentence,
Knows my every move and thoughts.
& he's perfections will cover up my flaws,
While mine will cover up his.

& he'll give me all his affirmations with no assumptions.
At the same time, proving through his actions.



Affirmations, attentions and affections with no assumptions.
This man will be the Man.



I do not need him to solve my problems.
Just need him to not lemme face it alone.





Tata~

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